movinggggggg

I have officially set my moving date to Denver. August 28th, 2010. Which means I have to start getting ready sooner than that. So I'm making a little list for myself to remember and check off things I need for this move. Please add any that you can think of yourself.

Bedroom

1. Sheets
2. Blankets
3. Hangers
4. Dresser
5. Alarm clock

Bathroom

1. Plunger... is this really necessary?
2. Shower curtain... curtain hangers
3. Toilet bowl brush... again?
4. Floor mats
5. Soap dispenser
6. Garbage can/bags

Kitchen

1. Silverware
2. Dishware
3. Glasses (wine and regular)
4. Pots and pans
5. Utensils
6. Can opener
7. Waffle maker!
8. Dish towels
9. Dish soap
10. Cutting boards
11. Drainer
12. Corkboard/dry erase board
13. Tupperware
14. Swiffer
15. Tea kettle
16. Salt/Pepper
17. Garbage can/bags
18. Saran wrap/aluminum foil/ziplocks
19. Oven mitts

Living Room

1. Candles
2. Throw Pillows
3. Couches
4. End tables and coffee tables
5. Coasters
6. TV- Laura
7. DVD player
8. DVDs
9. iPod Dock

Cleaning Supplies

1. Windex
2. Laundry detergent/dryer sheets
3. Bleach cleaner
4. Vacuum- which means I need to get a new brush for it
5. Sponges
6. Spot carpet cleaner
7. Stain remover
8. Air fresheners- I have Christmasy ones, need to get some others that fit the plug ins
9. Tool kit- I didn't know where else to list this.

they say its your birthday.....

Finally was able to celebrate my birthday on Friday night! Great turn out of friends and fun times. We started with a nice sushi dinner at Hiro and then moved to DJ's Dugout for the dueling pianos where 2 of my friends paid enough money to get me on stage.

They sang a song to me about rubber penises and my friends caught video. Then I fell for the kiss me on the cheek trick where he turned last minute and I kissed an old dirty man on the lips. Awesome.

Then a foursome of us made the trip to the last bar, Fedora's, to see Lala and make it out til 2 am. Balling.

i give myself good advice, but i very seldom follow it.

Thank goodness I'm feeling better today. I was starting to feel cut off not really checking my email, not doing half the things i needed to do. I've been very productive today thus far you see.

Updated my maps on my TomTom and bought Snoop Dogg's voice
Set up my new printer
Printed my guarantor application for my apartment!!
Pay my application fee
Emailed what I needed to work
Emailed Jane!
Go to the bank
Thank everyone for wishing me a happy birthday
Help Ben pack

Well at least I'm feeling good..

i won't tell you how to live your life, so please stay far away from mine.

Today I watched Alice in Wonderland with 2 of my favorite cousins. I'd never seen it before, because to be honest the previews freaked me out. The movie overall was decent and I fell asleep in the middle, but loved the soundtrack. I already knew that Motion City Soundtrack was on it singing "Always Running Out of Time". I missed MCS, its kind of amazing how far they've come. I saw them when I was a sophomore in high school at the Sokol Underground in Omaha with a close friend. Immediately I found their sound amazing and their lyrics fun. So cheers to you MCS, may your success grow but not your bigheadedness.

Here's some choice lyrics I've always enjoyed by them:

She's sings a lot of Ben Folds Five. She's scared to death of cobra snakes, just like Indiana Jones. She tells the dumbest knock knock jokes. She drinks a lot of chardonnay. She loves the smell of Christmas trees. She sneezes when she sees bright lights.- Antonia.

Lights out we're covered in each others warm embrace. They carved the message deep within,
Our broken hearts that failed to mend. Make out kids never had a chance to be best friends.-Make Out Kids

So we were an accident, You'll always be my favorite one.-My Favorite Accident

I had a pocket full of dreams, But I gave them all to you. Now I think I want 'em back. So can you tell me if I'm crazy or confused? Don't ever change, the way you are. I've never loved anyone more.-The Conversation

I'm on fire, and now I think I'm ready to bust a move. Check it out, I'm rocking steady.-The Future Freaks Me Out

And if you like MCS, check out this video: MCS Covers Pavement

I also watched Remember Me tonight. Excellent film with an amazing twist, highly recommend it.

I want so badly to believe that there is truth and love is real. And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd.

I am not perfect, of this I am certain. I have made mistakes and done things I've regretted. How do you move on? How do you know when you have overcome them? Do you just start over and hope you're smarter or do you cut yourself off?

Tonight I had a serious talk and reflection of my choices that make me damaged goods and more or less a liability to mankind. It's depressing, and not just for me, but for the people that I've made these choices against and the strangers who relate. I don't mean to hurt you. I don't intend on anything happening but my hopes for us, but I am me and I am terrified of that.

I regret...
cheating on a boyfriend I "loved"
telling a boyfriend or two I loved them without truly knowing how much it meant
fighting until there is nothing more to be said
fighting for a relationship that should have been over
being selfish
hurting people that cared for me.

Who's to say we won't stay together? Who's to say we aren't getting stronger?
Who's to say I can't live without you?

you have bewitched me. body and soul.

I dedicate this, my first post in over a year, to a very special friend of mine, Laura. I read her blog and it inspired me to start mine up again. I was especially touched and encouraged by her list of life experiences she wants to accomplish. It made me realize I needed to get my list out of my head and online, so as not to be fearful of it anymore. Not that I was afraid of my aspirations before, but I wasn't willing to share them with anyone. I kept them safe in my head or in a private email folder. But now I'm saying go for it. The only person stopping your dreams is you.

Thanks Laura.